P.S: It pains me to realize I suck at writing rhymes. HAHAHA!
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Moments of regret.
I shouldn't tell that I had a crush before on that certain person.
And now there's this uncomfy tension between us both. We could pretend that it never happened, and say that it was all in the past.
But its not as easy to let it go, unless you are one ruthless beast.
Nevertheless I wish it didn't happen. I wish I really could turn back time.
Now let's just be cool
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Mom shouldn't have said "Sometimes I feel like I'm going away"
Going away to where Mom?
"Somewhere we should not fear of. Sometimes, I just feel that my time is soon."
Why would she even say that?
My heart felt so heavy when she said that. My voluntary reflex action = tears building up, the state of being speechless and blank mind.
She just struck me out of nowhere with that.
Stubbornly, I brushed off the topic. Held back my tears. Move on, to the next topic.
Gosh.
I don't wish to look forward for such things. Nor do I want to hear about it. It's just all plain scary. I don't think I could face it or live with it.
Mom is everything to me. Without her, I don't know what I'll Be.
Love you mom.
I'll pray for your longetivity and health. So that each day, I can wake up and see your face again.
Oh Mother, I love you so much.
City of Weirdos. 10:34 AM
Sunday, January 21, 2007
"If someone said three years from now,You'd be long gone,I'd stand up and punch them out,Cause they're all wrong"Who Knew...That I would came back strong?
That I would pull it through all in 4 weeks?
That I would end and sum up the critique session with a bang?
That I would nailed the final year project?
That I was in it to win it, persevere till the end?
Surprise surprise.
I Did.Who Knew...We had come to an end?
We could survive all the shit for 3 years?
We could survive the people for 3 years?
We were still strong enough after 3 tormenting years?
We could leave them so easily with no regrets?
We would beat them all?
We Did.
Who Knew...That you and me would ever talk again?
That we would laugh and joke again till tears ran down our cheeks?
That we would remember everything we once did together?
That we would ever reconcile?
That we've grown so much?
That we would be best friends at the end of the 3 years?
They didn't. We know better.
We did.
Who knew...If we'll always be around for each other?
If we'll hear each other voices again?
If we'll still laugh and joke like we used to?
If we'll be fools like we used to?
If we'll ever touch each other again?
If we'll meet again later?
If we'll ever loose each other?
If we'll ever remember each other?
If we'll still call us friends?
What's the future for us? For you, For Me?
We'll See. But Again, only
He Knows.But for now, I'll miss you n keep you locked in my head, until we meet again. And I won't forget you my friend, what happened.
"That last kiss,I'll cherish,Until we meet againAnd time makesIt harder,I wish I could rememberBut I keepYour memory,You visit me in my sleepMy darling, Who knewI Miss you..."
City of Weirdos. 3:24 PM
Sunday, January 14, 2007
The tormenting late nights of doing work. The much needed rest and good sleep is finally here. No more half an hour Power naps. Back to me. Back to life. yeah rite. like i have a life to go back to. well maybe. haha
Project is finally over. submitted almost everything. did i say almost? yes. but it doesnt appear to be that way for the lecturers. well ya, can say i cheated here and there a bit. ahahah. but hey, who says the world is fair. but thats not the point.
Anway, all left is my presentation critique coming this friday. hopefully it goes very well. I'm feeling a bit unsure about how things will go since i changed my design n concept at the very last minute, one month before the submission. To make it worst, this whole process happened during my term break. But wth, i'll just give it my best later.
I doubt i'll top my course this year though despite my two year long run. i guess some others shine this time round. And I guess I was exhausted mentally of diggin more creative ideas. Besides, for two years back to back i Didn't have any holidays in between. So i guess now school is finally coming to an end, I'm looking forward for a holiday trip. Just a small budget relaxing environment trip. A beach will be nice. Gee...i hope i'll deserve this break.
Well pray for me for everything to come.
Oh yah, my sis read for me in my horoscope in ELLE magazine, that I'll be facing a bad year in 2007. I dun wish to believe in it, but u know anything is possible. So cross my fingers and hope everything goes well.
But yet again. I'm such a skeptic with all this things. hahaha.
City of Weirdos. 1:44 AM
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Its 2007 already?
I feel like I'm still in 2006. Erm, but honestly, I don't keep track of time. Haha.
So much that have not been achieved. So much things I've yet to come across.
The worst feeling is: The year had unnoticeable ended while you were pushing your ass off to achieve your desired goals.
Don't ask me about new year resolution. If I have one, I wouldn't be bothered to tell anyone cause I know I won't stick to it. You have the paradoxical 'long' year, but there are always THE unexpected things jumping to share your ride. That's what we call the external factor. Muahaha. I feel like i'm giving some lecture! Lol. I shall restrain myself.
Sometimes I wonder, most/majority of the people who were out there celebrating and ushering the new year, i doubt had at least 1 or 2 of their 2006's new year resolution made happen. And why are they so eager to usher in 2007?
Unless you are one disciplined fella, then kudoz to you.
City of Weirdos. 7:43 PM
