P.S: It pains me to realize I suck at writing rhymes. HAHAHA!
Friday, December 29, 2006
Do you know that Gay/Lesbian friends bite you off real hard. Bitchy is one thing that I can totally tolerate. But when it comes to vengeance, selfishness, insensitivity they are the real cold bitches in the world.
I have to admit my opinion is very biased and homophobic. With all due respect, I have nothing against the sexual orientation of how one prefer to lead their life.
By writing this post, I know I'll be swarmed with loads of outrage comments from the gay people. So as a disclaimer: I will like to stress that, this is based on my personal experience and its only refered to the minority of the gay people who some are my friends. No intentions of disrespecting or creating a drama here.
My experience, I have a friend who always complain of the hardship of being openly gay to the society and how ruthless the reluctant acceptance of the society could be or even boyfriend materials!! When he's down with the gay issues, we are always there to comfort him. It's not out of sympathy to the gays, that's why we are doing this. It's just humility and out of respect n kindness.
Unfortunately, when it gets hard on us straight ones, its only their backs we can talk to. Don't expect the nice treatment you gave to him when he was dead stuck for months, cause he'll just give a 1 mintue bark back " I told you so. You're just like the other pathetic shipwrecks." or they'll give you the best one liner advice that you've once given to them in the most vicious jack the ripper way.
OUCH! Your counselling consultation has ended with him. Permanently.
It's a pity and unfortunate that some of them are really good people, very sociable, happening people, colourful personalities to admire or even be inspired. They are also very protective of their really close friends if they were verbally attacked on the spot. But all of that will come to a waste when they switch into their "oblivious-selfish off to my social circle" mode. To them, My life's too short, its the social life I got to run instead, Ta-Ta!The irony: we spent so much time giving him support when he's in hellmouth. But it's only a minute he could spare for us though.Maybe this whole time I have been ranting pointlessly and pissively.
but..
My point is: Keep treating your str8 frens unfairly,selfishly and obliviously, the only str8 frens you'll ever get and appreciate are the ones who are out there to get you one way or another in the present or future or they are plain doofus who simply are lonely and begging for acceptance themselves.
"Heterosexual or homosexual we should always practice fair treatments"The irony: You are always saying that the heterosexual society are unfair to you. What have you done in your part when they've given you your anticipated acceptance and fair treatments?PS: This post works both ways -either to the homosexual or the heterosexual. It could also be of concern to cultures/races. No offences. This is again just a blog post/reflection on human individual humility, kindness and respect for each other to achieve the harmonious cohesiveness living of a community.
City of Weirdos. 3:57 PM
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Let me lay down the line here.
As much as A Levels is important to you, As much as getting a good grade, As much as impressing your boss, As much as completing your year in JC or Poly or Uni, As much as pleasing your girlfriends and boyfriends, As much as achieving all of your own goal and dreams...
IT IS AS IMPORTANT TO ME FINISHING MY WORK!I'm sick and tired of people thinking my work is just a JOKE! I didn't spend bloody three years in that stupid course and building, wrecking my whole brain and social life for nothing.
Yes! I have no time for you guys - family or friends! But hell, fuck, at times the word SELFISH is a key player here.
Yes! My social Life Sux. Watever. If you are my fren, my family members you understand the whole shit I am in, and fuck you'll stand by me.
COME ON! IT'S BLOODY FEW MONTHS TO GO. GIVE ME SOME ROOM. STOP BEING A TWAT!ps: dis is not only refering to only you dee. To all of the people who have been very insensitively inconsiderate. Ain't apologizing for my harsh, biting words. I can't be nice everytime.
City of Weirdos. 11:21 AM
Ok! I am ridiculously happy today. and silly not to mention.
I just finish one good
HUGE perspective of my design idea.
swwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeettt!Tmr, go school do more work. must keep up. Ok go!
Added a stranger on msn from frenster. was like one week ago. STM, i forgot who the hell he was! Got all silly and stuff asking who he was and where i got his contact n yada yada.
Poofs! I suddenly remember. Cliche story? oh c'mon give me a break will ya! Blame on the rainy days, making me all go wootzie.
Anyway, yeah. Talked to this guy. A cool interesting NS guy, very upfront and sociable. rather open to some issues.
FUN! Not those typical doofus guy. But quite a disappointment to me cause i think i talked to him on a bad timing. I think he was sleepy, tired or bothered with loads of stuff in the head, conversation was irritatingly slow and medicore. But can't be blame, its raining, weather good for slow reactions and, unfortunately I'm chirpy happy mood. Not easy u get this kinda mood k.
Well hope to tok to him once more again! Well i know he might be reading this cause for what ever reasons we exchanged blogs n decided to link each other?
Oh yeah! I went gym today alone for two good hours! I decided I'll be a gym bunny and fitness freak. Need to, NAPHA coming babes! Anyone who'll like to come along? Jus contact me. Sometimes it gets lonely doing the exercises k. And its not fun when u get wondering eyes from other people. Don't know whats in their heads:
1. What is he doing?/He's doing it all wrong!2. I bet he can't lift that weight/ I bet he can't do at least 5 reps of that!
3. Wow, that guy could do that/ If he can do that, I can too (which i doubt anyone is thinking this way. hahahah! i just like to amuse myself! Please just give me a moment)4. He's cute! MUAHAHAHAHHAHA!Aren't I? hahahahah! boo ya! i can't believe i just made a damn narcisstic comment about myself. Bet I'll regret saying that.
Ok i gotta skooot now. Make way ding dongs. Off to sleep with my meow meows!
City of Weirdos. 2:42 AM
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
ok did it. done with it. i may have screwed up in it. whatever. not doing anymore. malay emceeing is sooooooooo not my forte. least, i know what i am good in and not.
Ok. ya so I am like a big bro to you. '
thanks' for the reassurance. Not only do i feel old, I feel that I am just that. A bro, a friend. nothing more.
always been that.Why do I have all this ponderings in my head rite now..
shoo shoo!! HAHAHA. ok tt's the ridiculous sentence I've just made. shoo shoo? Lol! so asian lah. sounds effects replacing real words. Lol!
And I ain't deleting that. I'm going to bold it somehow. kwang kwang.
I am so weird.
Suddenly that sentence makes it all good to me now. Haha. Self release therapy? kwang kwang.
City of Weirdos. 1:49 AM
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Cinta. meaning love."Cinta" is a film of five modern-day love stories with the metropolitan skyline of Kuala Lumpur as the backdrop. While each story is independent, the characters are connected to each other by circumstance, coincidence or location.With love as its universal theme, the movie takes us through the lives of five couples who search, find and lost their love in the beautiful city. Through them, we experience five different facets of love. -
Yahoo!The new Malay Movie which has been playing Malaysia now. I just caught it in the weekend. And I reckon you to watch it too.
Sorry No English Subtitles though if you don't understand malay. Hopes it does in the VCD /DVD verison.Now to my review. It is the
Best Movie without a doubt to wrap up my 2006 year, no doubt about it. You'll have to agree with me once you watch it. I'll be too nice to give it 5 out of 5 stars, so i rather give it a generous
4.5 stars!
Picture
Love Actually in Asian, Malay Style - without the whole intimacy and sex scenes please. Still a conservative Asians. Period.
The stereotype formula for succesful Romantic Love films = physical intimacy. In most films which falls victim to this genre, an absolute abundance of physical love intimacy is a taboo. You must have it at least a minute or even 5 seconds of lip locking scenes. Hollywood is the first victim of this strategical business formula. Mind you, even Action or Horror Movies can't escape from this vicious entrapment.
I have to give the biggest credit and applause for
Cinta, being a Romance/Family film, it got away with this stereotype formula. Intimacy is translated to the audience through psychological and emotional interpretation. And that factor won most of my votes.
Unlike the multi million epic love story production,
Puteri Gunung Ledang,
Cinta, conveys its message through the simplest word which the Malay community is closely related to. Push aside all the flower literature Shakespeares like profound language in PGL, you get another 'epic' love story production
Cinta, which obviously doesn't cost as much as the latter.
Cinta is set amidst Malaysia's busiest city, Kuala Lumpur. It follows the story of 5 couples - a naive girl in search of her 'love' one, a married couple who's marriage falls apart, a siblings unconditional love, an eligible romantic bachelor who's afraid of commitment and last but not least, a widow love and care for an old man who suffers Alzheimer.
But what really stole my heart was the fact the film was able to capture the lifestyle and culture of the society, and it was daring in revealing some of the nitty gritty dirty little things which presently is happening in the city. For example, lookout for a man chasing another with a Parang, and also how cleanliness and hygiene is not part of the Malaysian society. For a lame hopeless romantic movie goer, such elements which I have seived, won't be a prominent significant message that the movie is trying to convey. So, my recommendation while you watch this movie, try to spot and appreciate the several underlying messages be it family-romance-social issues, and i bet you'll appreciate and love this movie, making it the best movie of the year.
I'm sad to say in my opinion,
Cinta and almost any Malaysian production social issues films in any genre, has no doubt bloomed the Malaysian film scene,
NOT PGL.So do look out for this kinda films from the Malaysian counterparts. Check out
Sepet and
Gubra and the upcoming horror movie,
Dukun.
City of Weirdos. 12:33 PM
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
I've updated. oh wow. yipee. *sacarsm intended*
Blogging is not my forte anymore. Cause maybe i hadn't had time putting effort into this. Do u even need effort to blog in the first place?
Bugger.
Anyway, my definition of blog to me presently, is the medium where i rant about something personal or problems. I guess. watever.
So personal problems don't come simultaneously unless you are full of luck having it dropping by everyday. So, this blog won't be regularly updated on a daily basis.
Well, i lay down the objective of this blog, so please try understand i can't update it as regularly as you wish it could.
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Ok now to my prob.
My Poly year ending soon. Final year project taking a toll on me. I kept on redoing my work, starting back to square one. up to date, i have only 4 weeks to go. I don't know how i can manage this. And i personally can say I'm not doing good myself. Despite that i want this to work so bad, i guess i'm running out of luck?
It doesn't help that i keep getting negativities around me. Lecturers are so not supportive and approachable. They are so uptight tht we are the first new batch of landscape architecture students in Singapore which will be thrown out into the sea. There's so much pressure, that it gets to us. Well it gets to me.
I'm just so afraid. nevermind you could be good in school, but are you ready out there in the real world? Are you good in their eyes? What's their expectation?
Worst still, such a small industry, competition is inevitable though they keep mentioning its in demand. In such an unpredictable economy and times ahead you'll never know. And it doesn't help that i got 2 years of service for the nation. period. and compulsory.
the whole national service thing is also bugging me a bit. but in a discreet invisible manner. i duno. don't ask me. its just the feeling.
Socially, my life is coming to a break point. I have not much of social gatherings, social outings and yada yada. I could blame it on my tight school schedule or i could just blame it on myself. But most of my friends are busy. Yati's with work, dee's with work. Almost all my friends have their boyfriends and girlfriends or out with their best friends etc. It sucks that my social circle is only a handful. And it sucks that I have to go out alone. Do things alone. Although sometimes I enjoy it.
Next, I'm in a one-love affair. Meaning, I so like or fall for this person. But they don't know about it or they did know, but they don't share the same for you. I do give them signs, I do show my affection, my interest. But mostly, everyone take it as only friendship or a jest. And it pains to see them with someone new. Besides, I have a problem with commitments in relationships and low confidence. Perhaps a lil bit in the expressing my feelings.
And this things just build up as you watch other people kissing, holding hands, telling me wonderful stories about their life and their partner, doesn't matter if it's on fights.
I don't dare sharing it with others cause it turns out to just be one of the joke of the day. But well what the hell am i doing it now? So yeah laugh if u want to.
Perhaps I would eventually turn out to just be a lonely single succesful bachelor, which my sister is afraid.
You're not the only one sis.
Sigh. the world is indeed unfair.
I really really like you from the day i met you. we have so much things in common. we both understand and laff at the same things. we both know each other too well. cheesy and cliche but its the truth. Nevertheless, you're with someone new. Besides, I just can't come clean and through to you. My mistake. However, unfortunately, you never will date a guy like me. To be precise, a malay guy.
City of Weirdos. 1:02 AM
