P.S: It pains me to realize I suck at writing rhymes. HAHAHA!
Thursday, August 24, 2006
It had been weeks, coming to a month since I've made contact with my social urban lifestyle.
Instead I've been hanging around more with my family. More specifically, my parents.
I've been spending the weekends, dinners, cooking and TV-watching time with them.
I feel greatful that I've gotten this opportunity, this quality time with them.
I mean which teenager spends that much quality time with their parents nowadays?
Its the phase of their life which involves exploration of your social skills, circle, fulfilment out there.
I felt I created a deeper connection with my Dad. I understood him better. We communicated.
We could hold conversations and jokes together. That was special to me.
My sisters are pretty occupied with their own life nowadays to go out with me. My friends are too. I feel lonely sometimes.
But I have always felt that at every unexpected stages, instances of my life anyway! 19 years of it. countless times it hit me. So does it matter?
No.
However, whenever it hits me, it brought me to focus on the unintended, forgotten, forbidden parts of your life. The people, the things that you should and ought to do.
For example my parents. Especially my dad. I gotten closer with them. I had always been too occupied and selfish with my own priorities and social activities, I forgotten to try to know my dad.
I'm starting to believe, that the downhill moments are not bad afterall. It carries a positive underlying lesson or realization of the things that you had forgotten.
It is too complex for one to understand and embrace it openly. Particularly one who follows his/her
emotions and desire too much rather than using his/her brains.
I feel fortunate that I am able to see and appreciate the significance of this moments.
La Bella Vita!
City of Weirdos. 2:50 PM
