Left In The Middle Of White Lilies Island

The One Who's an S

2008-12-01T16:26:00.002+08:00

He's a smooth operator and can sweep you off your feet with his persuasive ulterior words if you're not careful.

He befriends you only cause you're a tool for his own selfishness.

And you're blinded by a promising blissful cocoon you've dearly fancied which he could offer you.

Ironically, he's not The Devil in this.

You are no better. You just made him your own tool.

Supposed its a relationship on this silent agreement?

The One With The Rat Race

2008-12-01T16:17:00.002+08:00

It's a little bit too late to be writing bout this cause it was a 20th November 2008 event. But...so be it.

It was my first time organizing a mini Amazing Race in Singapore, and I was proud of myself as it went well. Of course, it was a kissing ass loss to those who perpetually opposed the idea!

To the racers, thank you for playing it all out though it was just a $10 voucher victory for runner-ups!

At least there was prizes? It's not that bad.

The One With The Speed

2008-11-10T15:53:00.004+08:00

So, I'm a bullet. When the trigger is pulled, I never looked back. I pierce through everything in my way mercilessly, aiming for the target.

Yes, I've hit it. It was incredibly precise. Stunningly accurate. I piereced and burnt through the target. I gave my all.

And now I'm lying here. The heat in me starting to subside. I'm settling in. I did it!

So, what now?

Why does it feel so cold suddenly?

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I'm the speedy bullet train! The fastest in the world speeding up to 210km/h. I'm so driven for my destination! Call me unstoppable!

I reach my destination in minutes! Not hours. Not days. Not Weeks nor Months.

The best magnificently fastest train in the world! Nothing compared to the other carriers.

.....But sometimes I wish I could be them for a change. Because I would love to see all the 'stop' signs, the people, buildings, mountains, rivers and lakes. I would love to see the faces of those who watches me, fascinated by my speed and my shiny beautiful armour! The raw emotion on their faces is simply satisfying!

But all I do is passing them by....cause I just keep on going, going and going.

THINK + CARE

2008-10-27T22:50:00.003+08:00

I believe when Wall Street crashed, economy lunges down, trees are brought down, icebergs are melting away and Singapore faces a ratio of older population and younger population at 2:1 all we need is basically each other.

The Mayan Tribes were able to survive in the forest without the google box, or caviars or even the latest Coach bag. The African tribes were able to live in dusty, dry treachorous environment. Yet they survive.

What do we need for survival?

Comfort? Luxury?

Are we living in a world of WANT rather than your basic essential NEED?

But are we able to live in solitude? Life uncut from others?

We claimed self independence in our lives. You call 999 just to hear another voice on the other line to know that you are not alone in this world. You're patheticly looking for assurance in your life. Still independent beings?

Perhaps Ipod, LCD TVs do give excitement in life. But how far will it go with you in life since techonology is always updated?

I like to point out that in anytime of crisis, when it hits ground zero, the people around you are the only elements that you need to survive. Be concerned and compassionate about others. We're living in a network chain where the slightest action affects a singular atom. Think.

The way to being green, is to THINK + CARE. The way to sustainability is to THINK + CARE. My life depends on you. Your life depends on me. If we want to change the world, we should start to THINK + CARE about others.

the entry on the new room

2008-09-23T12:57:00.003+08:00

Its rather striking that miraculously this blog is still breathing. I realised I had abandon it for a period of time. However due to several email returns on the daily hits, I decided to return the call.

I redecorated and invested in my room. New furniture. New gadgets. New color. New Layout.

Threw all my old clothes, furniture. Cleared all the rubbish and papers. It's rather therapeutic. You definitely feel refreshed.

I'm pleased with myself, though the money is running low a bit.

Thanks to the helping hands from my dad, dadut and benny. If not for them, the reconstruction definitely will be longer than it should.

I might put up a pic of it, if I'm not slothful. ;)

Re-Introduction

2008-05-20T00:43:00.001+08:00

SO WHO’S UMAR?

I’m the quirkiest eccentric unpredicatble ugly looking chap who bites you emotionally and psychologically. Don’t deny it. All of you have been tortured by me, one way or another.

Be afraid..

HAHAHAHAH!

Ok, only if you are a stubborn, chauvinist, obnoxious brat. Do you deserve my sympathy?

N-O. NO! NO!!!
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Nevertheless I’m still the friendly loving boy! My bites too leave tender loving marks. You won't be disappointed! Hello World!

Breakout

2008-05-20T00:24:00.000+08:00

Turning 21 has turn out ridiculously to be a big issue. Universally, to my knowledge, coming in 16 was the real deal. Turning 21 here in Singapore typically is just a ticket to mildly uncensored films, entrance to bars or pubs. And since number 21 is just an admission to an R rated movie, lavish celebration wasn’t any of a necessity.

21 – is in fact the real deal. The number you fear at this point. It is the number that knocks you back into reality. You suddenly found out the numbers to your age has alarmingly increased at such a fast rate, you felt like you just celebrated your birthday yesterday. At this stage, Paranoia has definitely got the better hold of me. Ok breathe. It’s not that bad.

You’re just thinking too much.

How bad could it be?

Or could it?

So You Want A Piece Of Me?

2008-01-16T17:08:00.000+08:00

This is one of the occasional post update that will enlighten whoever who STILL does take the effort and time to check and read my blog. I adore and appreciate your undefeating faith in my blog. That's really mayjah to me.

I decieded to go blog hopping, updating my social development department and other rather 'global' issues that I should perhaps be aware of, since the working shifts have totally disrupted my touch with the BIG outside world.

You don't need long lengthy wordy texting BBC or CNN websites to update yourself. More likely I'll just do fine with their headlines and pretend I have digested everything. Can't help it. It's a lazy syndrome passed down from the father.

So a lazy reader like me, have sites like Perezhilton to update my info-dried brain here. Trust me, the site has more than just Pink-colored weird hairdo gay guy ranting bout his fascination with Britney's vajayjays and, head hunting and exposing closeted gay male celebrities. Obama and Hilary Clinton and that French President who's dating that model, even made it under his radar. So go figure! Politics, scandals, entertainment, Law?

Moving on, lets touch on the topic of blogs! Read a few - two to three blogs - boy, they just made me cruise back into those days being an angsty foolish teenage kid. You hate this person, you diss him off in the internet. They hate you, and you start singing to Britney's You Wanna Piece Of Me...Good old times!

Now for your fascination and PIECE of real good entertainment! You definitely have to watch both of Sugababes new video, Change and Denial on YouTube! Can't deny it's a helpless fan propaganda promoting chunk of text here for the Sugababes! But honestly, do take a look at their video! It's really a big shame that no one really notice their talented approach musically, artistically, fashionably! They are classy, sassy group of girls you should all be looking out for. And they are BRITISH!!!

I love Brit Acts!!!

Denial

2007-10-17T19:45:00.000+08:00

Listening To:
Gone
Kelly Clarkson

You like Mary.

Mary's no longer here. You probably won't cross paths with Mary because of the distance and time. Perhaps once or twice in a year. And you can thank the lucky stars for your coincidental event.

It'll probably be one of your happiest moment. And it'll could possibly be one of the painful moment where you wouldn't want to let Mary go again just like that.

But, it's only hope. Hope that you even bump into Mary again.

Hence, to kill your longing and misery of missing Mary, you told yourself that your chances are over. Nothing is left for you to be missing Mary. Mary's gone.

Come the sudden busy preoccupied life, the large circle of friends to veer off your mind bout Mary, and the angsty-not-missing you songs to make yourself feel better and stronger.

And you think you will come out alright, A-Ok! after this therapeautic paradigm shift. You cried out loud that you finally could breathe again! Told yourself you're back on the road. Reassured all your friends and family.

And one day, Out came the beeping sound of a message on your phone. Suddenly voluntarily came that Hope. You hoped that it is Mary once you press that button leading you into the INBOX.

You're still in denial. Mary's never gone. You haven't cross Mary out.

Change

2007-10-06T16:47:00.000+08:00

Changes.

1. As of today, we are finally non-residential trainees of HTA. We've become office hours trainees periodically.

2. I got ample hair to style for this coming Raya.

3. Sugababes has a new look, single, video and a great electro inspired pop sound 5th studio album coming out titled "Changes". I've always been a die-hard fan of them. They've got an original style in their music, performance and even their fashion sense. And they can really sing and harmonize together effortlessly! Few girl bands have each member able to really sing and have the ability to harmonize together with wonderful blended voice acrobatics. Up till now, its only Sugababes and All Saints. I sense some heavy argument following up on this. But to each his own.

Here's a look at Sugababes new change:

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My shoutouts to these people: Helmi.gorilla. & Impy.Im. & CaiLai. & Haikal.Mc. & Faliq.Rizal & Bryan.Boy & Jack.Ong & Jin.Tu & the rest whom I've been living with for the past months

Words

2007-09-29T22:36:00.000+08:00

I met Pretty Yatee yesterday for dinner cum breaking of fast. I had one of those good times meeting one of my oldest, still surviving friends around.

Rock on Babe!

Erm..You've always been rocking, so its kinda redundant rhetorical motivation statement there. Hahaha!

Pretty Yatee has been friends with me for at least 7 years. We're reaching to an 8. And hopefully it shall not end at 8 or sooner. Friends forever sounds darn cliche and too ambitious. But huack, I still prefer Forever for now. So love ya babe! And cheers to Forever!!

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I realize I'm a sucker for good, flowing, natural conversation.

I cannot stand someone who speaks in a processive structural way. The conversation seems to appear akin to statements straight out from a newspaper report or an undergraduate's theory paper.

And even if you're gifted with a gorgeous face, it just won't work for me to stay for another 5 minutes talking to you. Not even if you're Brad Pitt!

I'm also not a fan of those who talks as if the Cambridge Thesaurus has been surgically transplanted into their right half of their brain.

But, no doubt, using fantastic, impressive vocabularies in your everyday conversation shows off your command of the language, and in reality does bring you to places. eg. job interviews.

It's this basic formula: You use va-va-voom W-O-R-D-S = you intelligent = you are in/hired/admitted!

It's just words!!

It's a manipulative illusive strategy that people seem to use to get their way up. Unfortunately, the reality, people tend to keep buying this shit! It has comfortably turns itself into a culture.

My point is, people are using rare vocabularies extensively, that it becomes too pretentious and just too dramatic.

Why can't they just use simple words?

You don't need to speak or sound 'intelligent' with vocabs to be intelligent.

Seriously, my language in this rant is rather poor after reading it through. But that's my whole point. My point is still there even if language cocks up! You get my point?

Something About You

2007-09-29T00:34:00.000+08:00

It's practically 5 more nights of sleeping in that barrack. It's like home to me already. Sounds crazy and sick in a way. But it makes more sense when you practically stay in there like 3/4 of your week?

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There's something about you that makes me go jumpy and my heart race faster than road runner. Makes me blush and give me cold sweat.

There's something about you that makes me stutter, absent minded and dazed when you start to speak.

There's something about you that makes me wait a little longer to see if you're there, hoping you will.

There's something about you that makes me wonder everytime I speak to you.

There's just something about Mary.

Comeback

2007-09-23T15:49:00.000+08:00

Hello Blog! Yet, again.

After a long hiatus. What? Around 4 months?

Chuckles. Not that long afterall.

I decided to come back into this blogging business after heavily inspired by Britney's courage to return into what she WAS. Rite...

But if we were on that line, at least I made my comeback with a few pounds off. Looking rather good myself. The only similarity worth identifying: we need supplies of those speedy hair regrowth shampoos!

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While Brit was trying to juggle her messed up life during her hiatus, I was and still am undergoing patriotic service to my country.

Highlights: Patriotism? Hmmmm....

Whatever it is, don't expect much of future entries to be routine training procedral stories of my escapade to our very own local version of the set of Prison Break. I know it will certainly sound mundane. Been there as a reader, so avoiding it at all cost. Hopefully.

Instead, as per normal, and as true to the function of BLOG, Human behavior never fail to be the hottest topic on any blog! And Training Academy is one sinful treat for die hard human behavioral observers like me. Never imagine Training Academy akin to a scene of Charlie and The Chocolate Factory. Goodie goodie!

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Having enlisted to spend weeks with other 37 individuals and sleeping with at least 9 of them in one common room, I've met so many colorful characters! We have the jackass clowns, the gluttons, the undercover ones who cadge and schnorr on others, the cantekerous ones, the vain pots, the weaker ones, and definitely the ghastly dramatic ones.

Meeting these characters have build and strengthen my resilience and confidence with strangers definitely. I once feared that my national service life will be a dread cause my lack of 'friendly' social skills. I was always a push over, bitter and icy. But eventually my time here has been fruitful in the sense that I've been able to overcome my bad habits. Thanks to these strangers that I've met for these months.

Honestly, it's pretty scary that the draggy time in camp that once dreaded, has evolve itself to be of time that you wish it could hold on a little longer. Just to spent a few more seconds or minutes, or hours even, in this newly build ties with people (regardless hate them or love them!) who were once strangers to you, seems to be so precious and in demand.

My hopes: to be able to meet these people yet again after we march our way out of the academy and even national service.

Have no idea why I'm sounding emotional suddenly. Wahahaha! I must be on crack!

Nuff said.

The Big Hyped Up Graduation, & the low key birthday.

2007-05-25T22:22:00.000+08:00

The Big Hyped Up Graduation, & the low key birthday. They fell on 23 May 2007 and 25 May 2007. I was hoping the latter to not be that way. Sigh!

Money Matter

2007-05-11T22:51:00.000+08:00

Got my money in the bank, don't know what to do with them.
Gave to Mom n Dad.
Just Broke up my first 50 bucks from last Monday's withdrawal.
It's just bloody 6 bucks spent!

Seems like the remaining money will just be sitting in there. Period. I guess.

Thing is, I've yet to find a time for myself to go out shopping or dine some good food.
Nor have I found the right company to go with. More like I have no one hooking me up or could set a date to meet.
Nor do I have the mood to spend the money.

Definitely, not worth spending it on freeloaders! (So don't self-suggest special treat for your own good. I'll do it when I feel that you deserve it.)

Irony, I was really anticipating my month's pay. And now I got it, I have no idea what to do with it.

I'm forseeing some impulsive buys to come.

To think of it, its quite true when they say money can't buy you happiness?

Lame? perhaps.

Oh brother!

Why Designers never make it as Models.

2007-04-29T20:14:00.000+08:00

"WHY DESIGNERS NEVER MAKE IT AS MODELS?"

I was in NUS, School of Design and Environment today for my interview and aptitude test. On my way in, I noticed McDonald's.

Now it has come to my conclusion, McDonald's are always in close proximity to any School of Design. I'ts like this hidden secret rules and agreement they have!

Back when I was in Singapore Polytechnic, McDonald's was way too near to us that we kept skipping tutorials and lectures to pile up the fats with freshly deep pop-into-your mouth fried french fries! Not to forget, the bursting chill Coke!

Darn kapoochee unhealthy. The result is ME! hahaha!

I have nothing against McDonalds! Don't get me wrong. Am not afraid to sing I'm Lovin It!

But please! For my health and fitness, I plead you Ronald McDonald, stay away from Design Schools! Why can't they have sashimi!? Makis?!

It's no wonder, the best designers are never as good looking as their models. All the stress they getting from McDonalds!! To eat or Not to Eat!

And if you chose not to eat, you'll end up looking deprivedly stick thin sick - body and face.

WHY?

cause your body not getting any of the sinful stuff. And it gets too much into your head that you'll pull a long face. Your mood starts to swing. You'll end up like Project Runway Santino.

Well maybe my 'thesis' on McDonald's invasion in Design School is a rather a pityful lame pathetic cry!

But it's worth a thought? Don't you think?

Japanese Invasion

2007-04-28T15:43:00.000+08:00

I so am hooked onto Sashimi!!!

I need sashimi!!!!

I'm obsessed with Sashimi!!!!

I'm going crazy over Sashimi!!!!

erm....

correction! I'm so digging Japanese Food! - PERIOD! (always like to tell myself that.)

I want it so badly~!

Ok this cravings are definitely categorized as "nuclearly" dangerous!

*bite my fingers*

All thanks to my boss who treated us for lunch at Raku, in conjunction to Secretary's Week. Ok I recommend Raku. Dark, zen decor with nice english slow songs playing softly in the background. Food is a definite yum yum yum yum! (4 out of 5 that is!) Not so hyped up about the service though. And definitely not overly happy with the price if you're the budget eater (which I don't find it anything wrong being one at all!) Service can be better.

Never the follower

2007-04-22T14:14:00.000+08:00

I could never fathom how one can be stinking with anger, melancholism and animosity each and every day. Why can't we be jovial goobers? Why can't we all try to get along?

No doubt we may have our downs. But we have to learn to pick up our ownselves. We can't be sulking on it too long. Instead problems should be bid 'goodbyes and so longs!'

"I'm tired of this!" is confirmed the lamest dreadful whiny complaint if its repeated ritually in one's SMS, diary, blog or from their own mouths.

Haven't you heard "Get over it, girlfriend?"

You're So CUCKOO~!
ahhahahahah!
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Ok here's some take on the Malaysia horror film's title "Jangan Pandang Belakang" which means "Don't Look Back"

We told Mom about the movie hitting Singapore's cinema really soon. Was surprised she was actually oblivious to the movie's buzz. And so she quickly randomly retorted.

"Why can't we look behind? Our own problem ah! Where we want to look, front, back, sideways - right or left, down or up, why can't we look behind? Then so stiff! What only."

Another occasion, was talking to my friend about the movie's unexpected hot buzz. Personally I find the whole title is damn cheesy and always made fun of it, including the trailer, its visual effects and the ghost itself. So I was definitely crossed to learn that it's doing so well.

So my friend simply innocently sang "Don't Look Back.... in Anger." Thanks a lot for the Oasis version,pal. Greatly appreciated.

And so we laughed

2007-04-19T21:38:00.000+08:00

"Doolittle will make it through till the end of the season's competition. I like the other two big ladies too. The...ah..La..La...Latifah? La.."

"Lakeesha?" I interjected.(Not pretty sure how it's spelled. As long as the pronounciation hits the mark.)

"Yeah the big lady! Wait, both are big. Everything of them are big!!" he laughed out merrily.

"Doolittle is pretty. No, not in the celebrity image way, but her personality" he continued. "She's one happy person. She sings with emotion, narrating her songs effortlessly, and huge voice. She enjoyed what she did. And so should we."

We nodded and smiled. Trying hard not to argue.

"Let me tell you. I watched only 3 shows if I switch on the TV. American Idol, Amazing Race and Survivor. I wouldn't want to watch movies playing on TV cause there's too much commercials" he confirmed.

"These shows get you into the mood. It engages the viewers. I like that!"

And so we smiled and laughed as we listened attentively to the 72 year old man in front of us. Always amazed by his wise, informative and sometimes philosophical theory lectures he will spare us whilst working.

That's my boss.

Young at heart, and still kicking~!

The Call

2007-04-17T21:14:00.000+08:00

I received an acknowledgement letter that I've been shortlisted in the School of Design and Environment, National University of Singapore, for the course of Architectural/Industrial Design today.

It stated that I had to come down for a scheduled interview and an aptitude test.

No doubt, being shortlisted for NUS is undeniably good news. And if things go well, an admission to NUS is like the icing on a cake! Ok perhaps I'm being too dramatic. Lol!

However, I'm having second thoughts. What about Landscape Architecture? I'm terribly confused and dazed in making a decision for now.

The trouble is my cumulative GPA allows me to go for either courses. Well, pardon me for bragging, it could get me to anywhere at least.

I could choose to leave home for Perth to study in University of Western Australia. Unfortunately, money is unquestionably an issue for me. Although tempting bank loans are always there. It pains to also know that scholarships are way too scarce to be given out so dearly by stingy Singaporeans.

If only there was a local university which offers Landscape Architecture in Singapore, my decision making will be simpler the least.

Being smart, can be pricy I suppose? Hahahaha.

Clearly proven. To an extend.

Nuff.

OFFICIAL

2007-04-15T12:39:00.000+08:00

It's OFFICIAL:-

I'm seving my nation as a policeman for 2 years.
I'm the man in blue with the sexy ass! (its evident the pants definitely helps to perk it up! LOL!)
I'm enlisting 12 June 2007! Mark that people!

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I have graduated my Diploma in Landscape Architecture with (MERIT).
My graduation ceremony will be held on 23th May, Singapore Polytechnic Convention Hall, 530pm!
I came from the first ever batch of students from Diploma in Landscape Architecture!

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Thick pubic hair was the in thing back in the 80s, 90s!

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Yatee is an exotic kinda girl. (She's looked like she's mix of asian-black-white parentage! But she's just purely MALAY! lol!)

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Bobby is usually a name for short, fat, plump or a dickhead. (sometimes even literally)

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Sudoku books in Singapore's MPH are ridiculously expensive! ($15-18 for a book?)
They have Sudoku for Dummies!
With all the guide books offered in bookstores, it won't be surprising if they held a workshop/course specially for Sudoku.

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I am proud of myself for I could settle myself being independent, cheap and appreciating life's difficulties and its beauty it possess. And I don't mind taking the long way round.

There might be times when loneliness overwhelmed me, but I'm so comfortable in these easy silence that was made for me all this while. I grow when I loneliness hit me. Weird. But I am ever the weirdo.

My middle name.

Nuff said.

Easy Silence

2007-04-12T22:24:00.000+08:00

Ok, this is a double entry for today. (I suppose?)

And this time round, the entry gonna be 'musically' expressed? Whatever. I have no idea how to describe in proper what this entry is coz brain plain dead. period. But that doesn't stop me from posting one NOW! khakaha.

My current mood, and currently diggin in:

Amy Winehouse - Rehab
Dixie Chicks - Easy Silence
Chris Daughtry - Home
John Legend - Coming Home
Dido - Mary's In India
Dashboard Confessional - So Long, So Long
Elliot Yamin - Wait For You
Jennifer Lopez - Ques hiciste
My Chemical Romance - I Don't Love You
Linkin Park - What I've Done
Joss Stone - Tell Me About It
The Killers - Read My Mind

Totally freaky yet crazy about:
Natasha Bedingfield - I Wanna Have Your Babies
(Not that I'm so keen to have one now! But its just catchy and daring song!)

Sophie Ellis Bextor - Catch You and Me And My Imagination.
(Damn Happy Willy Wank-er stalker songs! I love! Hahaha! To be honest, when it comes to dance genre, I can easily dig into Sophie's and Kylie's song. Just the right voice for the right music perhaps.)

P.S: Recommended songs, worth listening to for now. Period. Again.

Paradigm Shift

2007-04-12T21:06:00.000+08:00

Working life is totally taking a toll on me. The energy - physically and mentally -draining out of me. Nowadays I usually knock off to bed by 11pm. Gone are the late night TVs, DVDs or chatting.

Perhaps it appears to be draining because of the paradigm shift from a slacker to an instant worker. Unfortunately I picked up the gear a tad too slow on my momentum towards this change. I believe I'll get better with it as days progress.

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I had watched the upcoming movie Bridge to Terabithia. A refreshing heart-warming story of true friendship, family and lots of 'wild' imaginations. It can get tear jerking at the climax of the story. So get ready for tissues if friendship or even family love does give a significant value to you. The leads played their characters so well despite their age, their performance are believable and applaudable.

Do try to catch it when it hit the cinemas here. Or else, you know how to get it the WRONG way.

Till then.

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30 Rock!

2007-04-06T00:08:00.000+08:00

The BIG 3-0!

Not my birthday definitely. Not the date too.

It's my 30th POST for this blog!

This is another random entry, cause the main story for today seemed to just slipped away, just as my fingers felt like dancing.

Darn kapoochee~!

I missed my camp mates. My Building and Environment School fellow camp mates. Met them yesterday. And I missed them more now. We weren't great best friends amongst us. But we do settle in well with each other. We automatically become mentally challenged people, no offence to those out there who aboriginally are. Take it as a compliment. In a weird way, utmost.

Lionel, Kimiko, Jacelyn, Farhan, LS, Singer! We gotta meet up again!

Till graduation ceremony then.

P.S: To John Seddon, bet you don't read blogs nor even met me before, hahaha, but sorry I couldn't be a better job candidate despite my merit achievements. LOL! I'm sincerely regretful of this evening's conversation. Much love!

Weirdo @ Work

2007-04-03T22:16:00.000+08:00

Read my post title, and you figured it out. I'm working already, starting from today. Felt so surreal. Didn't expect I get a job this soon though.

Well I got a call from the boss, that he was interested to meet me. He asked me to come down to the office yesterday, but I was too lazy to come down and scheduled it this morning instead.

So today, early morning, smartly dressed in white shirt n pants. Looking semi-formal, I board a bus, alighted after 5 stops away and there I was. DAIRY FARM ROAD!

Now in case, you haven't heard of this road, its a long boring deserted road, with thick vegetation at both of its side. And in this thick vegetation, hidden is my firm's office. I'm working in the jungle people. Yay, I felt like Tarzan. Just missing my Jane. (Cause there's some wild macaques dancing around behind our office. You can see them out of your window. God knows, what else in that jungle. I'll tell you every single wild animal sightings from now on!)

Upon arrival, after briskly walking 15 mintues under the blazing morning sun, I was standing in front of this cottage look alike house with thick woody vines half successfully engulfing it. I felt like I was in some fairytale, where you finally stepped onto Old Witch's house.

Suprisingly, it was all modern within. Sigh of relief there.

Ok, here's the thing, for a job interview, first impression counts. So articulately, ettiquettely, image-wise, you have to impress. Look and sound, good, as well as smart. I got my 72 year old boss-to-be mocking me.

"Wahhh! Where so smart into the jungle! Casting to be in the next season of Lost isit?"

So not appreciative. But for a 72 year old man - LOST? That's impressive!

I got the job in the end. Apparently Image doesn't seem to matter here.

Moral of the story: No formal attire when you going for an interview in the jungle!

Oh yeah changed my blogskin. Hope it strikes well. Hahahaha. hmmm....

Midnight Blues

2007-03-31T12:17:00.000+08:00

If I was a tourist, upon reaching Singapore's world class airport on 30 March in the morning, I picked out a brochure from the Singapore Tourism Board's Visitor Centre's Booth. Browse the contents of the brochure. Caught the headline: SHOPPING.

Adjust my eyes to glance further down the column. BINGO! Midnight Shopping Sale Experience - only happens on the last friday of the month! Now that's one hella shopping extravaganza not to be missed. And what luck that I'm in Singapore this very day!

Now, LUCK isn't really the word to describe how the midnight shopping went. It was utterly disappointing. I was there in the middle of Orchard Road hoping to get some really good deals to bring home at the end of it. I went home empty handed. Well perhaps they didn't see me coming. HAHAHA.

Among the entire Orchard Road, Only a handful of shopping malls were open. TANGS, PARAGON, WISMA, PACIFIC PLAZA, CENTREPOINT (I was pissed Ngee Ann City didn't participate). True, they were open. People kept streaming in and out of them. Only after going into a mere of 2 -5 shops out of the tens or hundreds they had in them.

Worst still, I made myself walk towards Pacific plaza from ngee ann city, looking forward for the much buzzed (based on the thousands flyers they were distributing along Orchard Road) 15% off Quicksilver, Rip Curl, Fox, and Stussy merchandise, only to be letdown. It was freaking 11pm and they were close? They got to brush up on their time management skills. It's M-I-D-N-I-G-H-T!! Equation = 12! You are not Cinderalla, I won't forgive you for not knowing that.

I've never felt cheated ever in my whole shopping sale spree adventure! (Well I confess there are certain times when they advertised - up to 90%! Knowing very well the fact most of the 90% are the faulty or leftover 10 yrs ago stocks! I was too naive to believe in all that gimmick. Still am guilty of that. Hahaha!) But being cheated by this midnight sale, takes it to another level of cheating. (Gee. Do I make sense in that sentence? LOL)

To begin with, it was overly advertised along Orchard Road itself and news of it were splashing on the 'NEW media' - coughs. And it wasn't a cool, breezy night to shop - correction - CHEATED. It was stale and still and humid. The air-conditiong of most shops were half dead, despite the increasing warmth in the room temperature due to the flocks of shoppers. (I believe its for cost-saving effort to cover up for the extension of additional 2 hours of eletrical bill) - TOPMAN & TOPSHOP, you are truly guilty of that!! Take note.

'nuff said.

Now, back to the 'If I was a tourist' scenario, I am truly disappointed.

If you were a tourist, you ___________________?

Cheeky Fingers

2007-03-30T12:45:00.000+08:00

There are so many things that happened everyday in my life. I had some of the best ones in mind to put it up as saviour posts for my soon-to-be defunct blog. But whenever I'm facing this page, fingers so ready to dance on the keyboards. my brain just drained out all the juice.

Instead I'll be posting random irrelevant posts online, which I must shamelessly admit some were good. Well they're informative to an extend. You can't deny that.

I've sent my resumes to some of the landscape firms around in Singapore. Sadly, I only a few of these firms that discreetly exist in Singapore. Unlike Architecture, landscape firms are smaller in size as a whole. And it doesn't matter if you were one of the tops students of the first batch of landscape students in Singapore. Honestly, internet is not helping. Well, that's not entirely its fault. I plead any landscape firms, please make yourself available on the internet! And for those who are in the landscape industry, I cheekily plead you to have me in your net-working yeah. hahaha.

Moving on, I've realized that my language has been atrocious, looking back at my previous posts. Grammar errors, spelling errors. But I blame most of them on my bouncy ecstatic fingers. The wonders of what your fingers can do...HAHAHA. Now isn't that disturbing! Cheeky cheeky. Cheeky girls! (Whatever happened to them? I wouldn't wanna know coz they are better off gone making annoying d-listed music, as well as obviously amateur lyrics.)

That does it. I'm off.

The Parasailor In Malaysia

2007-03-22T12:50:00.000+08:00

I've returned from a one week vacation to Penang and Langkawi.

Penang, guided by my uncle, was albeit similar to Singapore. It's surprisingly clean, green and well shaded despite its scorching sun and heat.

Stayed in Uncle's beautiful luscious condos situated opposite the coastline, it has one of the good views of the sea (even caught a firework display at one end of the coast at night). He had the most accesible location, a walk from the all rounded Gurney Mall, nearby eating places, and Subway, Starbucks, Coffee Bean, Mambo Club, directly two blocks away from his. Picture East Coast coastal development.

My uncle extended his invitation to us, anytime. Need a place. He has an extra key.

How exciting! I can't wait to go back to Penang. Didn't really got to try out the faous penang char kway teow! So might do that the next time.

Soon.

Langkawi has the best scenic landscapes in Malaysia hands down. Took the inclined cable car to the top of one of the hills (702++m abv sea level). The ride is pretty scary for those who have phobia of heights. But a great experience not to be missed. At the top, on a clear day, you'll be able to see the beautiful, breath taking view of the Andaman Seas.

I stayed in Sunset Beach Resort. Lush tropical oudoor garden settings, calming to your senses, friendly staffs. Rooms are a tad disappointing. Just bad pillows. I didn't really expect much from it in the first place. It's kinda predictable the rooms are influenced to create the real concpet of Malaysian Kampong living environment. Bottom line, its not a rundown dilapidated shack houses.

Lots of Caucasians are flocking Langkawi surprisingly. Sunset Beach Resort seems to be the number one host for them. We were honestly, the only asians roses among the pricky thorns.
And we were the noisiest bunch of monkeys that seems to invade the calming silent retreat atmosphere. No doubts, we got some head turnings. And when they do, I like to play Danity Kane's Showstopper in my head. Give them that smirk and glance like the DK girls do, while quietly in my head singing yeaaaahhhh!

Most of the Westerns were basking in the sun, tanning till they got the perfect red hot lobster shinning skin. They don't seem to participate in any of the water activities such as jet ski or kayak. I, in the otherhand, did the parasailing for a mere cheap RM60! It was my first time doing it, and it was the best nerve-wrecking experience. Hanging in the air, you could see a nice picturesque view of the beaches and nearby islands. It was kinda cheesy that I was humming to R Kelly's I Believe I Can Fly while I was waving to the little liliputs humans from up there? Thinking back, it's hilarious.

Parasailors have to watch out for their cue signal from the marshalls on the beach, to pull yourself down on the beach to land. Instead I unglamorously landed sideways, and plunged into the open sea. The marshalls told me it was rare for one to land in the sea, and that I should make it as one of the memorable experience. Hard to believe his words, but well hell yeah, not everyone gets to land in the sea from the sky that often. I bought the idea in the end. I'm psyched to tell everyone I plunged in the sea from the sky!

I definitely will love to invade Langkawi again! It wasn't satisfying enough for me. There's so much to cover and I only did a few. I recommend that if ever you feel like visiting, take at least a 7D/6N stay in Langkawi, rent a van or a car, or even a scooter which cost RM30 for a day!

After a long day of hardcore activities, should go visit the massage parlour. It's advisable to do it on an empty stomach. Lots of great seafood restaurants to head for. Don't worry you won't really die out of hunger. But most food outlets closed when the clock strikes around 11pm. So have quite an early dinner.

I'll try to post some of the photos I took in Langkawi and Penang.

All The Buzz

2007-03-14T13:13:00.000+08:00

Ok what's new? What's Hot and Buzzing? Here's some of the lowdown.

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Did you freaks out there knew that FALL OUT BOY'S This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race was produced my music current hottest producer TIMBALAND?!?

Lolita Shit!

I freaking didn't knew it!

Watched MTV's POP Inc. while watching the re-run encore telecast of Amazing Race's Family Edition yesterday. TAH-DAH! The breaking discovery.

In my opinion, Timo is da freaking producer to beat seriously. He's so diverse and unexpected.

Well I can't wait to hear more new goodies especially the mostly anticipated and talked about collaboration-production with the Iceland Queen, Bjork.

I am just super excited to tell others about this. That's all. Share the facts people. Share the love! Peace out. LOL.

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Rob And Amber went out? Can you believe it? On the ALL STARS edition of amazing race. Can't stand Charla & Mirna. Doesn't mean you are a dwarf, you get the outmost respect and best treatment and understanding from the OH-SO normal people. She's an uber sensitive best supporting actress for role-playing as the victim. She definitely touched lotsa hearts.

Please let them be out asap!

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Ok the loose ties are so yesterday. Baggy skaters pants are out. Same goes with the dark dirty blonde locks.

Skirts are cool. Fish Net Stockings too. Dancing is totally the in thing. Ridiculous C-rated lyrics made best for Disney Channels, are definitely HOT now, since no one in goddamn America really understand metaphorical profound lyrics anymore. (Too busy trying hard to be wasted drunken party socialite. Well it helps if you got lotsa of the green lettuce like Paris.)

Meet the NEW AVRIL LAVIGNE!!!

Currently, She's loud and proud to be in skirts, dresses, and happily married and signed to FORD Models whilst screaming out cheerleaders girly anthems.

Now who would have thought FORD Models?

But no one's complaining it seems. Everyone has been very opened to her new image and comeback! Well me too. I didn't say I was complaining, did I? Just updates and pure FYI.

Kate Walsh

2007-03-13T21:13:00.000+08:00

There's so many talk shows around in TV nowadays. Last time there were the famous few ones:
Oprah to be the most favourite of all
David Letterman,
Rosie O'Donnell
Ellen Degeneres
Dick Clark

Now, we also got retired supermodels, retired or 'wasted' actors coming up with their very own talk show. But compared to the old timers, Tyra, The Tony Carnaz Show, has a long long way to go to compete with the other A-listers.

Was watching snippets of interviews or talks with their invited guest from each of these shows, in youtube. I love YouTube. The best entertainment for someone who's waiting to serve the governmnet two years of their life.

I am not going to rant about the quality of the show. Most really didn't catch my attention except, Ellen, David's and Craig Ferguson! That's because of KATE WALSH.

Who the hell is Kate Walsh? She's the red haired actress from Grey's Anatomy. She plays Patrick Dempsey's wife(exwife? I don't know. haven't watch Season 3.) Dr Adisson Sheppard. She's the gynaecologist? Pardon me for the spelling. hahaha. Not a spell bee here.

Kate's interviews are always different from time to time and from shows to shows. She always have some new stories to entertain us. And I liked it that it doesn't sound scripted, instead its like stories from a drunken woman's mouth. She's not drunk though as the show was filmed. At least I chose to believe. HAHAHA. They're hilarious, spontaneous and deliciously entertaining. Worth a listen and watch.

Pure entertainment i recommend!

Cravings

2007-03-07T11:58:00.000+08:00

I wanna eat fish n co.

BUT!!!!

I wanna eat the sambal goreng in SP's food court 2!

I wanna eat the cheese omellette burger in SP's Bang Deli.

I wanna eat at SP's food court 6!!!

I so crave a lot of good food. haizz....

Who wants go on a eating spree adventure with me. OLD SCHOOL babe! cheap stuff!

Too Soon?

2007-02-09T11:21:00.000+08:00

I'm jobless right now. I'm broke.

I don't know what to do. Will like to find a job while waiting for my NS enlistment. But this is the real dilemma.

Should I work in the service industry - retails, F & B, or some clerical data entry?

Or

Should I work in the landscape industry which I have been studying in for 3 years already?

But what amuse me, is how fast time pass, and here I am, out in the real world searching for job. Its freaky.

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Anyways, for that certain friend of mine.

I don't care if you have 8 or 10 years to live down the road. I'll still be here. You are certainly became partly a significance in my life, so I won't shove it down our friendship just like that.

I've lost you the other time. I won't let it happen again.

We obviously can't turn back time, so we have to move on, live a healthy, safe and positive lifestlye ahead without any regrets.

And I'll help you to kick all your bad habits and hopefully you'll be able to appreciate and understand, and have faith back in the meaning of life.

young boy, don't waste it...

Some Things Should Not Be

2007-01-25T10:34:00.000+08:00

Moments of regret.

I shouldn't tell that I had a crush before on that certain person.
And now there's this uncomfy tension between us both. We could pretend that it never happened, and say that it was all in the past.

But its not as easy to let it go, unless you are one ruthless beast.

Nevertheless I wish it didn't happen. I wish I really could turn back time.

Now let's just be cool
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Mom shouldn't have said "Sometimes I feel like I'm going away"

Going away to where Mom?

"Somewhere we should not fear of. Sometimes, I just feel that my time is soon."

Why would she even say that?

My heart felt so heavy when she said that. My voluntary reflex action = tears building up, the state of being speechless and blank mind.

She just struck me out of nowhere with that.

Stubbornly, I brushed off the topic. Held back my tears. Move on, to the next topic.

Gosh.

I don't wish to look forward for such things. Nor do I want to hear about it. It's just all plain scary. I don't think I could face it or live with it.

Mom is everything to me. Without her, I don't know what I'll Be.

Love you mom.

I'll pray for your longetivity and health. So that each day, I can wake up and see your face again.

Oh Mother, I love you so much.

Who Knew

2007-01-21T15:24:00.000+08:00

"If someone said three years from now,
You'd be long gone,
I'd stand up and punch them out,
Cause they're all wrong"

Who Knew...

That I would came back strong?
That I would pull it through all in 4 weeks?
That I would end and sum up the critique session with a bang?
That I would nailed the final year project?
That I was in it to win it, persevere till the end?

Surprise surprise. I Did.

Who Knew...

We had come to an end?
We could survive all the shit for 3 years?
We could survive the people for 3 years?
We were still strong enough after 3 tormenting years?
We could leave them so easily with no regrets?
We would beat them all?

We Did.

Who Knew...

That you and me would ever talk again?
That we would laugh and joke again till tears ran down our cheeks?
That we would remember everything we once did together?
That we would ever reconcile?
That we've grown so much?
That we would be best friends at the end of the 3 years?

They didn't. We know better. We did.

Who knew...

If we'll always be around for each other?
If we'll hear each other voices again?
If we'll still laugh and joke like we used to?
If we'll be fools like we used to?
If we'll ever touch each other again?
If we'll meet again later?
If we'll ever loose each other?
If we'll ever remember each other?
If we'll still call us friends?

What's the future for us? For you, For Me?

We'll See. But Again, only He Knows.

But for now, I'll miss you n keep you locked in my head, until we meet again. And I won't forget you my friend, what happened.

"That last kiss,I'll cherish,
Until we meet again
And time makesIt harder,
I wish I could remember
But I keepYour memory,
You visit me in my sleep
My darling, Who knew
I Miss you..."

Its Over

2007-01-14T01:44:00.001+08:00

The tormenting late nights of doing work. The much needed rest and good sleep is finally here. No more half an hour Power naps. Back to me. Back to life. yeah rite. like i have a life to go back to. well maybe. haha

Project is finally over. submitted almost everything. did i say almost? yes. but it doesnt appear to be that way for the lecturers. well ya, can say i cheated here and there a bit. ahahah. but hey, who says the world is fair. but thats not the point.

Anway, all left is my presentation critique coming this friday. hopefully it goes very well. I'm feeling a bit unsure about how things will go since i changed my design n concept at the very last minute, one month before the submission. To make it worst, this whole process happened during my term break. But wth, i'll just give it my best later.

I doubt i'll top my course this year though despite my two year long run. i guess some others shine this time round. And I guess I was exhausted mentally of diggin more creative ideas. Besides, for two years back to back i Didn't have any holidays in between. So i guess now school is finally coming to an end, I'm looking forward for a holiday trip. Just a small budget relaxing environment trip. A beach will be nice. Gee...i hope i'll deserve this break.

Well pray for me for everything to come.

Oh yah, my sis read for me in my horoscope in ELLE magazine, that I'll be facing a bad year in 2007. I dun wish to believe in it, but u know anything is possible. So cross my fingers and hope everything goes well.

But yet again. I'm such a skeptic with all this things. hahaha.

The New Year Bug

2007-01-02T19:43:00.000+08:00

Its 2007 already?

I feel like I'm still in 2006. Erm, but honestly, I don't keep track of time. Haha.

So much that have not been achieved. So much things I've yet to come across.

The worst feeling is: The year had unnoticeable ended while you were pushing your ass off to achieve your desired goals.

Don't ask me about new year resolution. If I have one, I wouldn't be bothered to tell anyone cause I know I won't stick to it. You have the paradoxical 'long' year, but there are always THE unexpected things jumping to share your ride. That's what we call the external factor. Muahaha. I feel like i'm giving some lecture! Lol. I shall restrain myself.

Sometimes I wonder, most/majority of the people who were out there celebrating and ushering the new year, i doubt had at least 1 or 2 of their 2006's new year resolution made happen. And why are they so eager to usher in 2007?

Unless you are one disciplined fella, then kudoz to you.

Harmonious Living Society

2006-12-29T15:57:00.000+08:00

Do you know that Gay/Lesbian friends bite you off real hard. Bitchy is one thing that I can totally tolerate. But when it comes to vengeance, selfishness, insensitivity they are the real cold bitches in the world.

I have to admit my opinion is very biased and homophobic. With all due respect, I have nothing against the sexual orientation of how one prefer to lead their life.

By writing this post, I know I'll be swarmed with loads of outrage comments from the gay people. So as a disclaimer: I will like to stress that, this is based on my personal experience and its only refered to the minority of the gay people who some are my friends. No intentions of disrespecting or creating a drama here.

My experience, I have a friend who always complain of the hardship of being openly gay to the society and how ruthless the reluctant acceptance of the society could be or even boyfriend materials!! When he's down with the gay issues, we are always there to comfort him. It's not out of sympathy to the gays, that's why we are doing this. It's just humility and out of respect n kindness.

Unfortunately, when it gets hard on us straight ones, its only their backs we can talk to. Don't expect the nice treatment you gave to him when he was dead stuck for months, cause he'll just give a 1 mintue bark back " I told you so. You're just like the other pathetic shipwrecks." or they'll give you the best one liner advice that you've once given to them in the most vicious jack the ripper way. OUCH! Your counselling consultation has ended with him. Permanently.

It's a pity and unfortunate that some of them are really good people, very sociable, happening people, colourful personalities to admire or even be inspired. They are also very protective of their really close friends if they were verbally attacked on the spot. But all of that will come to a waste when they switch into their "oblivious-selfish off to my social circle" mode. To them, My life's too short, its the social life I got to run instead, Ta-Ta!

The irony: we spent so much time giving him support when he's in hellmouth. But it's only a minute he could spare for us though.

Maybe this whole time I have been ranting pointlessly and pissively.

but..

My point is: Keep treating your str8 frens unfairly,selfishly and obliviously, the only str8 frens you'll ever get and appreciate are the ones who are out there to get you one way or another in the present or future or they are plain doofus who simply are lonely and begging for acceptance themselves.

"Heterosexual or homosexual we should always practice fair treatments"

The irony: You are always saying that the heterosexual society are unfair to you. What have you done in your part when they've given you your anticipated acceptance and fair treatments?

PS: This post works both ways -either to the homosexual or the heterosexual. It could also be of concern to cultures/races. No offences. This is again just a blog post/reflection on human individual humility, kindness and respect for each other to achieve the harmonious cohesiveness living of a community.

TWATS!!

2006-12-28T11:21:00.000+08:00

Let me lay down the line here.

As much as A Levels is important to you, As much as getting a good grade, As much as impressing your boss, As much as completing your year in JC or Poly or Uni, As much as pleasing your girlfriends and boyfriends, As much as achieving all of your own goal and dreams...

IT IS AS IMPORTANT TO ME FINISHING MY WORK!

I'm sick and tired of people thinking my work is just a JOKE! I didn't spend bloody three years in that stupid course and building, wrecking my whole brain and social life for nothing.

Yes! I have no time for you guys - family or friends! But hell, fuck, at times the word SELFISH is a key player here.

Yes! My social Life Sux. Watever. If you are my fren, my family members you understand the whole shit I am in, and fuck you'll stand by me.

COME ON! IT'S BLOODY FEW MONTHS TO GO. GIVE ME SOME ROOM. STOP BEING A TWAT!

ps: dis is not only refering to only you dee. To all of the people who have been very insensitively inconsiderate. Ain't apologizing for my harsh, biting words. I can't be nice everytime.

Ding Dongs

2006-12-28T02:42:00.000+08:00

Ok! I am ridiculously happy today. and silly not to mention.

I just finish one good HUGE perspective of my design idea.

swwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeettt!

Tmr, go school do more work. must keep up. Ok go!

Added a stranger on msn from frenster. was like one week ago. STM, i forgot who the hell he was! Got all silly and stuff asking who he was and where i got his contact n yada yada. Poofs! I suddenly remember. Cliche story? oh c'mon give me a break will ya! Blame on the rainy days, making me all go wootzie.

Anyway, yeah. Talked to this guy. A cool interesting NS guy, very upfront and sociable. rather open to some issues. FUN! Not those typical doofus guy. But quite a disappointment to me cause i think i talked to him on a bad timing. I think he was sleepy, tired or bothered with loads of stuff in the head, conversation was irritatingly slow and medicore. But can't be blame, its raining, weather good for slow reactions and, unfortunately I'm chirpy happy mood. Not easy u get this kinda mood k.

Well hope to tok to him once more again! Well i know he might be reading this cause for what ever reasons we exchanged blogs n decided to link each other?

Oh yeah! I went gym today alone for two good hours! I decided I'll be a gym bunny and fitness freak. Need to, NAPHA coming babes! Anyone who'll like to come along? Jus contact me. Sometimes it gets lonely doing the exercises k. And its not fun when u get wondering eyes from other people. Don't know whats in their heads:

1. What is he doing?/He's doing it all wrong!
2. I bet he can't lift that weight/ I bet he can't do at least 5 reps of that!
3. Wow, that guy could do that/ If he can do that, I can too (which i doubt anyone is thinking this way. hahahah! i just like to amuse myself! Please just give me a moment)

4. He's cute! MUAHAHAHAHHAHA!

Aren't I? hahahahah! boo ya! i can't believe i just made a damn narcisstic comment about myself. Bet I'll regret saying that.

Ok i gotta skooot now. Make way ding dongs. Off to sleep with my meow meows!

Screwed

2006-12-26T01:49:00.000+08:00

ok did it. done with it. i may have screwed up in it. whatever. not doing anymore. malay emceeing is sooooooooo not my forte. least, i know what i am good in and not.

Ok. ya so I am like a big bro to you. 'thanks' for the reassurance. Not only do i feel old, I feel that I am just that. A bro, a friend. nothing more. always been that.

Why do I have all this ponderings in my head rite now..shoo shoo!! HAHAHA. ok tt's the ridiculous sentence I've just made. shoo shoo? Lol! so asian lah. sounds effects replacing real words. Lol!

And I ain't deleting that. I'm going to bold it somehow. kwang kwang.

I am so weird.

Suddenly that sentence makes it all good to me now. Haha. Self release therapy? kwang kwang.

Cinta

2006-12-20T12:33:00.000+08:00

Cinta. meaning love.

"Cinta" is a film of five modern-day love stories with the metropolitan skyline of Kuala Lumpur as the backdrop. While each story is independent, the characters are connected to each other by circumstance, coincidence or location.With love as its universal theme, the movie takes us through the lives of five couples who search, find and lost their love in the beautiful city. Through them, we experience five different facets of love. - Yahoo!

The new Malay Movie which has been playing Malaysia now. I just caught it in the weekend. And I reckon you to watch it too. Sorry No English Subtitles though if you don't understand malay. Hopes it does in the VCD /DVD verison.

Now to my review. It is the Best Movie without a doubt to wrap up my 2006 year, no doubt about it. You'll have to agree with me once you watch it. I'll be too nice to give it 5 out of 5 stars, so i rather give it a generous 4.5 stars!

Picture Love Actually in Asian, Malay Style - without the whole intimacy and sex scenes please. Still a conservative Asians. Period.

The stereotype formula for succesful Romantic Love films = physical intimacy. In most films which falls victim to this genre, an absolute abundance of physical love intimacy is a taboo. You must have it at least a minute or even 5 seconds of lip locking scenes. Hollywood is the first victim of this strategical business formula. Mind you, even Action or Horror Movies can't escape from this vicious entrapment.

I have to give the biggest credit and applause for Cinta, being a Romance/Family film, it got away with this stereotype formula. Intimacy is translated to the audience through psychological and emotional interpretation. And that factor won most of my votes.

Unlike the multi million epic love story production, Puteri Gunung Ledang, Cinta, conveys its message through the simplest word which the Malay community is closely related to. Push aside all the flower literature Shakespeares like profound language in PGL, you get another 'epic' love story production Cinta, which obviously doesn't cost as much as the latter.

Cinta is set amidst Malaysia's busiest city, Kuala Lumpur. It follows the story of 5 couples - a naive girl in search of her 'love' one, a married couple who's marriage falls apart, a siblings unconditional love, an eligible romantic bachelor who's afraid of commitment and last but not least, a widow love and care for an old man who suffers Alzheimer.

But what really stole my heart was the fact the film was able to capture the lifestyle and culture of the society, and it was daring in revealing some of the nitty gritty dirty little things which presently is happening in the city. For example, lookout for a man chasing another with a Parang, and also how cleanliness and hygiene is not part of the Malaysian society. For a lame hopeless romantic movie goer, such elements which I have seived, won't be a prominent significant message that the movie is trying to convey. So, my recommendation while you watch this movie, try to spot and appreciate the several underlying messages be it family-romance-social issues, and i bet you'll appreciate and love this movie, making it the best movie of the year.

I'm sad to say in my opinion, Cinta and almost any Malaysian production social issues films in any genre, has no doubt bloomed the Malaysian film scene, NOT PGL.

So do look out for this kinda films from the Malaysian counterparts. Check out Sepet and Gubra and the upcoming horror movie, Dukun.

Self-Destruction

2006-12-19T01:02:00.000+08:00

I've updated. oh wow. yipee. *sacarsm intended*

Blogging is not my forte anymore. Cause maybe i hadn't had time putting effort into this. Do u even need effort to blog in the first place?

Bugger.

Anyway, my definition of blog to me presently, is the medium where i rant about something personal or problems. I guess. watever.

So personal problems don't come simultaneously unless you are full of luck having it dropping by everyday. So, this blog won't be regularly updated on a daily basis.

Well, i lay down the objective of this blog, so please try understand i can't update it as regularly as you wish it could.

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Ok now to my prob.

My Poly year ending soon. Final year project taking a toll on me. I kept on redoing my work, starting back to square one. up to date, i have only 4 weeks to go. I don't know how i can manage this. And i personally can say I'm not doing good myself. Despite that i want this to work so bad, i guess i'm running out of luck?

It doesn't help that i keep getting negativities around me. Lecturers are so not supportive and approachable. They are so uptight tht we are the first new batch of landscape architecture students in Singapore which will be thrown out into the sea. There's so much pressure, that it gets to us. Well it gets to me.

I'm just so afraid. nevermind you could be good in school, but are you ready out there in the real world? Are you good in their eyes? What's their expectation?

Worst still, such a small industry, competition is inevitable though they keep mentioning its in demand. In such an unpredictable economy and times ahead you'll never know. And it doesn't help that i got 2 years of service for the nation. period. and compulsory.

the whole national service thing is also bugging me a bit. but in a discreet invisible manner. i duno. don't ask me. its just the feeling.

Socially, my life is coming to a break point. I have not much of social gatherings, social outings and yada yada. I could blame it on my tight school schedule or i could just blame it on myself. But most of my friends are busy. Yati's with work, dee's with work. Almost all my friends have their boyfriends and girlfriends or out with their best friends etc. It sucks that my social circle is only a handful. And it sucks that I have to go out alone. Do things alone. Although sometimes I enjoy it.

Next, I'm in a one-love affair. Meaning, I so like or fall for this person. But they don't know about it or they did know, but they don't share the same for you. I do give them signs, I do show my affection, my interest. But mostly, everyone take it as only friendship or a jest. And it pains to see them with someone new. Besides, I have a problem with commitments in relationships and low confidence. Perhaps a lil bit in the expressing my feelings.

And this things just build up as you watch other people kissing, holding hands, telling me wonderful stories about their life and their partner, doesn't matter if it's on fights.

I don't dare sharing it with others cause it turns out to just be one of the joke of the day. But well what the hell am i doing it now? So yeah laugh if u want to.

Perhaps I would eventually turn out to just be a lonely single succesful bachelor, which my sister is afraid.

You're not the only one sis.

Sigh. the world is indeed unfair.

I really really like you from the day i met you. we have so much things in common. we both understand and laff at the same things. we both know each other too well. cheesy and cliche but its the truth. Nevertheless, you're with someone new. Besides, I just can't come clean and through to you. My mistake. However, unfortunately, you never will date a guy like me. To be precise, a malay guy.

The Long Wait

2006-09-15T20:49:00.000+08:00

I'm so sorry i didn't update much. I was busy in Perth for a week. And before this I was busy with my family chalet down at Aloha Loyang for 5 days!!!

And I'm gonna be busy again very soon! I'll be at the POLY FORUM 2006 at Downtown East for 4 days!

So i might not update anytime soon. Sorry for that!

But I'll try to keep you guys updated with my life after I come back!

Hope So.

A Little Personal

2006-08-30T11:15:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

I had realized that most people who knew me or befriended me are not at all sincere.

They are always around me cause they would like to gain something from me for their own selfish desire or neccessity.

Not many befriend me for who I am.

And once they gotten it, they'll simply briskly float adrift from this so-so friendship leaving me in the middle of nowhere.

But they'll only come back to me for the same old reasons.

They always appear sincere in their words, persona, and leave you with such hopeful impressions to me.

Unfortunately, I am that gullible to succumb into this whole act.

I have forgotten the thoery of life being a stage. And all are actors. Not many are sincere in what they do.

Honestly, I don't really expect something huge in return. Just a little bit of appreciation and thought will be sufficient to make me feel human.

And in the act of selfishness, (like you do), I will write this statements inconsiderately:

That you ONLY got close to me just to be with HER.

And you were ONLY willing to go out with me just to be with HIM.

Every time I hear you, or know your pressence in the house, the more my hatred towards you grew.

"We will still be the same - muthu, hippo and benny"..."Don't worry I'll guide you through this"... Yeah right.

I hate it when you guys know there's a problem between us, and you guys just let it pass. And the worst part, you guys go behind my back and asked my friend to speak on my behalf to settle this whole issue.

Point is, in our relationship, you need both two hands to clap? I don't see any effort coming from you.

Infectiously Contagious

2006-08-29T15:31:00.000+08:00

What's infectiously contagious which had gotten onto me other than Paris's Turn It Up?

SORE EYES!

I soooo hate sore eyes! It makes me have bloody red eyes. My eyes look like they're bleeding or something after a long long long cry. I'm so sad..

And the worst thing is, it itch! it bloody itch and my my eyes look puffy and swollen.

To be a good, understanding, caring and concern citizen, I had to wear my cool shades around the house, the school, in the train, anywhere where there are people around! Hehe.

Well the only good part about sore eys, you can jolly well have your coool shades on everywhere, whether you're out in the sun or in a well litted room, or even in the dark.

It's your only time to feel celebrities ie. Paris Hilton & Nicole Ritchie & P.Diddy!

Yeah so that's the only thing I like about sore eyes? hehehe. grins

But I still hate sore eyes! Wat a sore!

Oh my gosh! I think I'm writing this post sounding like a dumb blonde bimbo?

Toooo much Paris...sheesh.

Turn It Up?

2006-08-28T09:48:00.000+08:00

Ok, first thing first, ok I didn't meet up to yesterday's promise of more posts coming up. hahaha! But like anyone cared?

So I'm done with that.

Ok next: I hate to admit it. But I'm hooked onto club r'n'b beats. << Erm the next line will be far more dangerous of a confession than the previous one you've just read.

I'm hooked onto Paris Hilton's Turn It Up! Argggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!

Shit. It's just infectiously contagious. << Erm, actually both words meant the same. I just wanted to emphasized on its dangerous effect it has on the innocents!

Bite my nails....

Vintage Junk

2006-08-27T10:33:00.000+08:00

Olritays shenanigans.

If you're looking for vintage design tees and cool self-made tees, clothing apparel I have to let you go check out and support these local guys!

Check them out here: vintage-junk.blogspot.com

2nd post of the day. There'll be more. Just wait! khrekhre.

Alrite, dead bored sypathiqueme signing out!

Babysit

2006-08-27T09:42:00.000+08:00

Another fulfilling weekend had just started 1 hour ago.

I am babysitting.

Gosh I hate that word and the thought of that. Hell, I am doing it now as I'm writing this post.

My babies for today are: my three cousion ranging from 8 yrs old to 14 yrs old and last but not least my grandma.

Two days in a row, one weekend spoilt! Well, at least todays is quite dramaless. Well period, cause the little girl has just started her screaming tantrums...

gotta go now.

Maybe I'll update more later when I really get dead bored. Which I assume I'll get a lot of it today. Haiz.

You're The Unintended

2006-08-26T21:30:00.000+08:00

I met you. From someone I didn't care less now.

You came around sounding oh so sincere, dignified and wise.

You became my friend. But all these need to come to an end. I hope.

I feel wasted everytime I see you. You make me feel at the lowest point of my life.

Why do I still carry you, the biggest baggage of my life right now?

Cause I have no choice. It is beyond my control now. It has gone to another level.

You're the unintended. Uninvited.

In all relationships, be it family, friends, life partners, girlfriends, it takes two parties to make it work. That's the number one rule that everyone should pay heed.

Now don't come around asking me why I behave and react like this.

I had always been thinking positively and react to all this maturely. I can't be the only one trying to make this work.

Don't ask me anymore cause honestly, the thoery of silence is the best treatment for one to know what have gone wrong..

Should amazingly work well for you...

Ah-So Vs. Streetfighters

2006-08-25T20:32:00.000+08:00

Seriously, Fridays can be a tad boring. Particularly the TV programmes that they are showing.

For example, Ghost Whisperer is all about Jennifer 'I Have & LOVE Big Boobs' Ph-Hewitt!?

To accentuate my point, I found a parody clip that supports my justified sypnosis of that show.

Anyway, one of the Biggest Regret For Today: I can't believe I watched Streetfighter The Movie on AXN this afternoon.

#1st Gosh!
I know, vintage? Haha.

#2nd Gosh!
I know, what the hell was I doing? Now that I am ALL-GROWN UP and understood better the language of English, it scored The Most Number Of Tackiest Cheesiest Lines in a Movie. Not to forget: the bad acting, directing, ACTION?

#3rd Gosh!
Kylie Minouge was starring in it! No wonder she stopped making movies.

Moving on the 2nd Biggest Regret For Today: I had to face an Ah-So (a term we use to call old chinese ladies here in Singapore) while I was going home in the train. Boy, she was having a hella good time digging her nose in the train! What a happy exhibitionist! Keep diggin in it, digging in it...dig it baby.

For that whole 10 minutes, she could make an excercise video out of that moment.

Alright ladies, do you want have nostrils to die for? Follow me! Pick up your last little felangies. Sitck it up strong. Insert in your right nostril. Make sure your nose is comfortable with the depth you're inserting.

Step 1: Gently, slowly, in clockwise rotation, scrapped within your nosetril. Repeat this for 10 circular rotations.

Step 2: Switch nostril. Repeat Step 1.

And you'll have the best excercise regime you could have for your felangies and nose! It only takes 10 minutes to do it! A must try!

Gosh. I wonder watching Streetfighter was better than the Ah So or the other way round? You figure it out.

I'm in a dilemma. Any wise answer?

Nymphomaniac

2006-08-25T20:04:00.000+08:00

I was, randomly out of boredom, flipping through the dictionary today.

Why the dictionary?

Hmm..Sudden bursting urge of expanding my jimmy neutron boy genius brain I guess. Hehe!

Ok, anyway, hehe, I found a new word. My eyes always catch the most extraordinary word which sounds super 'chim' and depicts your 'smartness' if you were to pronounce it.

Today's word is: nymphomaniac

DEFINITION:

Adapted from : Cambridge International Dictionary of English

Nymphomaniac is a term to describe a woman likes to have sex very often especially with lots of different men.

Adapted from Dictionary.com

Abnormally excessive and uncontrollable sexual desire in women. >> "Oh C'mon! abnormal? Hakz!"

MY Kind of 'Definition'

Nymphomaniac = whore = slut! Haha! Its a good substitution for our old profanities eg. slut. Use this, you sound classier and sophisticated! For example:

"You're such a nymphomaniac degrading young machine resulted from one of your parents' uncomfortable bad night. It's a shame your Dad didn't shoot far enough. Gee."

See what I mean? That's just so fetch!

La Bella Vita

2006-08-24T14:50:00.000+08:00

It had been weeks, coming to a month since I've made contact with my social urban lifestyle.

Instead I've been hanging around more with my family. More specifically, my parents.
I've been spending the weekends, dinners, cooking and TV-watching time with them.

I feel greatful that I've gotten this opportunity, this quality time with them.
I mean which teenager spends that much quality time with their parents nowadays?

Its the phase of their life which involves exploration of your social skills, circle, fulfilment out there.

I felt I created a deeper connection with my Dad. I understood him better. We communicated.
We could hold conversations and jokes together. That was special to me.

My sisters are pretty occupied with their own life nowadays to go out with me. My friends are too. I feel lonely sometimes.

But I have always felt that at every unexpected stages, instances of my life anyway! 19 years of it. countless times it hit me. So does it matter?

No.

However, whenever it hits me, it brought me to focus on the unintended, forgotten, forbidden parts of your life. The people, the things that you should and ought to do.

For example my parents. Especially my dad. I gotten closer with them. I had always been too occupied and selfish with my own priorities and social activities, I forgotten to try to know my dad.

I'm starting to believe, that the downhill moments are not bad afterall. It carries a positive underlying lesson or realization of the things that you had forgotten.

It is too complex for one to understand and embrace it openly. Particularly one who follows his/her emotions and desire too much rather than using his/her brains.

I feel fortunate that I am able to see and appreciate the significance of this moments.

La Bella Vita!

Left In The Middle

2006-08-23T00:37:00.000+08:00

I love observing human behavioural patterns,

The complication of human relationships and the choices they make

Its psychologically thrilling and exciting.

I love the sight of floating happiness,
The undulating graph of emotions,
Sad, angry, boredom, frustration
Of basically..people.

Human..people..are the best subject of observation..although complex.

Then comes this wicked, whimzzical, playful analysis of ur observation.

Makes you cry, laugh, giggle, proud, happy. Think Ally McBeal.

I like the fact that no one ever notice my discreet observations
Me, in my comfortable hideout corner, secretly doing my little dirty deeds observing you.
Mentally.

Here you see me. I may be looking straight at you. Face to face.

But still, I feel invisible, treating myself, though in front of you.

Eventually, everytime, I always feel invisible. I am always left in the middle of each event. Left in the middle of all conversations. Left in the middle of the crowd.

Left in the middle to observe you. To do something that brings me satisfaction and happiness.